Do you even miss me? I spend most of my days wishing all is well for…but I can’t seem to bring myself to finish that half truth.
I don’t wish you well I wish you hell.
You left me when I needed you. No, I take that back.
To be fair, you were never truly there. Just a shadow of what could be. Of what should be.
Dearest papa, do you know how much I have cried.
Bet you would care if I drowned in my tears at night.
I do try, I truly do, to wish you well in your days.
It’s cold outside but I don’t care.
Want to rip out my veins
Drain the blood you hate so much
Would you love me then daddy?
It’s so very cold outside
Want me to die, daddy
Want me to throw away the life you regret so much
It’s cold outside
But I am burning up
Running from the past
I am always hurting, still
want me to leave, Daddy
Would that make everything ok
Go away to a place where you would never have to see my face
Would that bring a smile to your lips
Would you be able to do all the things I made you miss
Can you stand to see me burn
I threw away a life I never earned
Daddy, I’m not afraid anymore
I know you lied when you said I would always be your baby girl
I can’t sleep. It’s not to late to try though